Ok it’s been long I haven’t updated and write anything for this blog..
This week i learnt a lot. Ups and downs are barely there, my days were over so quickly and i felt that those days passed when my soul is not ready yet.
Some highlights:
1. I finally met Andra and Yaya! we will never change, I believe. The laughs are still there, the jokes ARE definitely still there, the friendship.. yes, it is there. The most important thing is I still have that comfortable feeling around them, which I rarely found within myself lately if I’m with somebody or within a group of people I called “friends”. Sigh.
When my first ‘went out’ with Andra, I met this boss of one the biggest media company in Indonesia (Andra was looking for some helps for his project) (baca: dana) and I went to accompany him. We had lunch in Nippon-Kan, and yeah, I (literally) bawled my eyes out when I saw the menu (AND OF COURSE, THE PRICE). One plate of sushi for 120.000 IDR!! Are you kidding me??
Yah, we were standing there like two stupid people did not know what to do (or order) , sampe akhirnya kita memutuskan untuk “yah kita pesennya ikut aja deh oom..” hahahaha.
It went great. That day went really great. I met many ‘oom’(s) (haha) and ALMOST all of ‘em have child who is enrolled (or going to) to MONASH. (and to be precise: to ACCOUNTING MAJOR. Geez.).
The second time I met Andra, it was also with Yaya and Nat2. We discussed about Mac (Yaya bought this MacBook Pro and I was all “DAMN YOU HOW CAN YOU *&^%$#@@@!!!!”) (and make some conclusion with Nat2 that yaudalah ya, namanya juga temen2 kita adalah Perkumpulan Orang2 Tajir Sedunia yang memang layak dan memerlukan hal2 tersebut). And we made this super-cool yet controversial photos of Jesus-last supper replica (IT WAS ALL YAYA’s IDEA!) and those two were so damn excited to upload the photo into facebook (added with some “nice” tags. sigh!)
I was so happy. I really was :)
2. My love.. He will go for about 3 weeks (geez) back to Malaysia.
What can i do? I felt that pain in my heart, not because I’m afraid to do such LDR for 3 consecutive weeks (well,…. maybe a little), but knowing that I’M SUPPOSED TO BE IN THAT PLANE, WITH HIM, and have my only chance to have such reminiscences, to have my own time machine experience (to ‘turn back time and do everything again from the beginning’)..
I love those memories so much, and to know that I will never ever have my chance to do all those things again, it kills me. At least I want some last nights to be remembered, some last nights with him (and others as well!) to look back and laughs, to hold hands and most importantly, to make them know how important they are to me in my life..
And of course, especially him :(
But yeah, God did not allow me to do such plans. And I always believe that God will always have more beautiful plans await for me, so all I can do now is just being patient and praying really hard..
3. Still closely related to above topics, I will start working on early August. My parents had decided that I should help them with all the finance things in Mutiara Bunda. So I guess I do not have any other choice.. Besides that, this job is temporary only (I really do hope so), to make myself busy before I continue to pursue my further education in Australia.
4. Ah yeah, it had also been decided that I will continue my degree soon (maybe in February) in Australia. I will apply for Monash (and Macquarie, tho) and decide which one best suited me later. (I guess it will be Monash, cos’ most probably my sister will have her bachelor degree in Monash as well.)
5. Many small matters that I also have to worry about (or is it just me and my sickness again?) (Which is “worrying too much” , FYI). And everytime I think about them, I will have this pain in my chest and this sudden migraine attack.
(kajuman!) hahaha..
So, I do not have many choices, eh?
After graduating in September, it will be the official time when I made my first baby-step into the real world.
All I can do now is just praying that everything is going well dan smua lancar (for me and ridzki, also) dan smoga Yang Diatas selalu berkenan memberikan berkah dan rahmatnya..
Ya Allah, mudahkanlah semuanya.. Amien.