Ya Allah, mudahkanlah..

Ok it’s been long I haven’t updated and write anything for this blog..

This week i learnt a lot. Ups and downs are barely there, my days were over so quickly and i felt that those days passed when my soul is not ready yet.

Some highlights:

1. I finally met Andra and Yaya! we will never change, I believe. The laughs are still there, the jokes ARE definitely still there, the friendship.. yes, it is there. The most important thing is I still have that comfortable feeling around them, which I rarely found within myself lately if I’m with somebody or within a group of people I called “friends”. Sigh.

When my first ‘went out’ with Andra, I met this boss of one the biggest media company in Indonesia (Andra was looking for some helps for his project) (baca: dana) and I went to accompany him. We had lunch in Nippon-Kan, and yeah, I (literally) bawled my eyes out when I saw the menu (AND OF COURSE, THE PRICE). One plate of sushi for 120.000 IDR!! Are you kidding me??

Yah, we were standing there like two stupid people did not know what to do (or order) , sampe akhirnya kita memutuskan untuk “yah kita pesennya ikut aja deh oom..” hahahaha.

It went great. That day went really great. I met many ‘oom’(s) (haha) and ALMOST all of ‘em have child who is enrolled (or going to) to MONASH. (and to be precise: to ACCOUNTING MAJOR. Geez.).

The second time I met Andra, it was also with Yaya and Nat2. We discussed about Mac (Yaya bought this MacBook Pro and I was all “DAMN YOU HOW CAN YOU *&^%$#@@@!!!!”) (and make some conclusion with Nat2 that yaudalah ya, namanya juga temen2 kita adalah Perkumpulan Orang2 Tajir Sedunia yang memang layak dan memerlukan hal2 tersebut). And we made this super-cool yet controversial photos of Jesus-last supper replica (IT WAS ALL YAYA’s IDEA!) and those two were so damn excited to upload the photo into facebook (added with some “nice” tags. sigh!)

I was so happy. I really was :)

2.  My love.. He will go for about 3 weeks (geez) back to Malaysia.

What can i do? I felt that pain in my heart, not because I’m afraid to do such LDR for 3 consecutive weeks (well,…. maybe a little), but knowing that I’M SUPPOSED TO BE IN THAT PLANE, WITH HIM, and have my only chance to have such reminiscences, to have my own time machine experience (to ‘turn back time and do everything again from the beginning’)..

I love those memories so much, and to know that I will never ever have my chance to do all those things again, it kills me. At least I want some last nights to be remembered, some last nights with him (and others as well!) to look back and laughs, to hold hands and most importantly, to make them know how important they are to me in my life..

And of course, especially him :(

But yeah, God did not allow me to do such plans. And I always believe that God will always have more beautiful plans await for me, so all I can do now is just being patient and praying really hard..

3. Still closely related to above topics, I will start working on early August. My parents had decided that I should help them with all the finance things in Mutiara Bunda. So I guess I do not have any other choice.. Besides that, this job is temporary only (I really do hope so), to make myself busy before I continue to pursue my further education in Australia.

4. Ah yeah, it had also been decided that I will continue my degree soon (maybe in February) in Australia. I will apply for Monash (and Macquarie, tho) and decide which one best suited me later. (I guess it will be Monash, cos’ most probably my sister will have her bachelor degree in Monash as well.)

5. Many small matters that I also have to worry about (or is it just me and my sickness again?) (Which is “worrying too much” , FYI). And everytime I think about them, I will have this pain in my chest and this sudden migraine attack.

(kajuman!) hahaha..

So, I do not have many choices, eh?

After graduating in September, it will be the official time when I made my first baby-step into the real world.

All I can do now is just praying that everything is going well dan smua lancar (for me and ridzki, also) dan smoga Yang Diatas selalu berkenan memberikan berkah dan rahmatnya..

Ya Allah, mudahkanlah semuanya.. Amien.

World Out There

The world out there is a strange place for me to be. It is scary, it is uncertain, it is everything i wish i do not have to go for.

Yet here we are standing, clocks are ticking and I have no choice but to step into it.

Gloomy

all gloomy, myself today.

Can’t seem to find the lights, can’t even capture the possibility of glorious time i will later have.

This is me, i tend to have a ruined mood for a small matter (which, in my defense, i thought was important)

Another quotes

 

“Love is not about finding the right person, but creating a right relationship. It’s not about how much love you have in the beginning but how much love you build till the end.”

New chapter, new hairdo?

Some crappy thoughts first..

After somuch changes in themes, clicked here and there, i just get soo exhausted by looking and trying to decide which theme i thought is the best one.

Yeah, for those who do not know me,

Hi, i’m Lintang. I can’t make any decision properly,  even the small ones. I’m expert at being undecided, i’m majoring in being plin plan every single time.

Ok yes, that’s me in a (really) short form.

Where were we? ah, the new theme, yah i think it’s okay (still! cant seem to decide ANYthing huh?) and since i’m too damn lazy to change any header, i will leave it as it is, … temporarily of course.

Graduating!

YEAH BABY! i’m graduating! I had my results came out at 10th July afternoon. I was so nervous, i practically checked my WES for about once in 5 minutes. Later on i started to feel that I was doing something useless, so i decided to take a shower. When i got out, i checked my mobile (because my sis said that there was a call) and yes, there was one missed call (which happened to be my pocidol) and one SMS.

I opened the SMS (without checking from who it was at first. uhum. so me.) and there goes: “My Monash portal SMS result……”

I was standing right there with an opened mouth and my hands were all shaky,

I passed! I’m done with Monash! I’m graduating! Oh God I was so overwhelmed i thought i could cry (which at the end, yes, i did a little cry). This means my journey finally has it end! and yet eventhough it’s so sad (and sucks, big time.) yet i couldn’t hide the feeling of glory joy happiness etc etc.. because i know i’m graduating AND with a very satisfying result (for me) in addition. Yes, apparently, i got two HighDistinctions and one Distinction :)

Thanks God for everything!

Ribuan Alhamdulillah gak akan pernah cukup buat ngungkapin smuanya yang gw terima ya Allah, terima kasih banyak :)

HENCE,

Since i make a promise to myself, after i know i’m graduating, i will cut my hair short….

Tada! here i am, with a really short hair, feeling good to myself *grin*

Cheers to the world! :D

Quotes of the day

“Any change, even a change for the better, is always accompanied by drawbacks and discomforts.”
Arnold Bennett

“Things do not change; we change.”
Henry David Thoreau

 

I hate changes. For what it seems, i really hate any big and significant changes within my life.

Yes true, eventhough it’s for a better life, eventhough you may not know what the changes will bring into your life..

But i cant help it. I once believed that people who do fear changes, they resemble the people who’s being so thankful for their amazing life and by simply loving the change, it simply means that they are the most unhappy people in the world.

(Istilahnya: gak pernah puas sama apa yang udah ada dan selalu pengen berubah)

getting my point?

Yes, i do know that was a really stupid thinking. and yes, time is the one which made abundantly clear to me that changes is inevitable.

But still, i still feel that my biggest fear is the change itself.

And i salute the people, who’s able to change their life and also survive getting through such “drawbacks and discomforts”.

“Because things are the way they are, things will not stay the way they are.”
Bertolt Brecht

 

 

 

 

ps: tomorrow (or maybe the day after tomorrow) is my life’s turning point. wish me a very good luck..

My first post

My first post on wordpress!

Yes, i’m a newbie, and the header up there, as you can see, is just one of the experiments i’ve done, which did not result in failure.

And because i’m too lazy to change it (added by the fear to face another failure hahaha), i will let that image hanging there at first, and later, if i have time of course, i will change it to a more appropriate header. (it’s so funny when i put the italic words “if i have time” since, i’ve got all the time in the world to do anything i want!)

(baca: pengangguran)

It feels weird to know that you’re at the end of a path, knowing NOTHING about what will you do in couple months later (or say, weeks). Yes, it also feels weird to know that such path, which has been so damn wonderful and nice and warm and etc etc, will have an end, and you are forced to take a new direction, a (maybe) scary one..

Geez.. how i hope that time FOR ONCE, does not fly this fast.

On the other hand, i feel that there’s no point in crying and moaning.. i still have my one and only God, my family – my support system, my friends (both in here and there), and most important of all, i still have him :)

Oh, and yes, eventhou people say LD relationship sucks (and i second that opinion), but somehow, deeply in my heart, i know we can do it (ya kan ci?), we’re 22 now, and there’s no way we can not handle matters such as ‘kangen yang luar biasa menggila’, ‘brantem lewat telepon’, ‘ketemuan yang jarang (atau hampir tdk pernah)’, ‘biaya yang membengkak’, etc etc, because, let me tell you,

we have been there, done that.

(well, i just hope my PMS do agree with me on that issue, tho :p)

Random issues (yet important!):

1. Results will be out on 11th July.. damnit.. my heart wont stop beating like crazy everytime i remember that.

2. After that, i’m officially jobless.

3. I moved to a new home in Alam Sutera Serpong, which is REALLY REALLY SUPER NICE, and i love this new home! (despite the fact that there’s no telephone connection yet)

i think that’s all for my first post, i’m blabbing too much.

have a nice day everyone:)

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