Gamang-ism

Have you ever felt that your life suddenly filled with this big black hole?

or as I always say, this “gamang” feeling?

Entah ya, tiba2 merasa gamang.. Apa pernah tiba2 lo merasa apa yang lo lakukan di hidup lo udah bener? Dan kalaupun udah, buat apa? Dan akan menuju kemana? Setelah melakukan hal ini, masih ada more things await to be done, more stuffs need to be prepared,.. and repaired. It’s like a never ending road that should be taken.. for us to reach our own destination.

Mungkin gw gamang karena gw merasa kangen tiba2 sama kehidupan Sunway..

I miss the laughters, I miss the tears.

I miss the freedom, I miss the feeling of taking care of myself.

I miss every person involved in my life, I miss every random person I met as well.

I miss such feelings I had before, and mostly, I miss them.

Or I’m simply just being tired and my mind is messed up, gw juga ga tau.

I am only able to wish that everything I do is on the right track, and whatever decision I made is the right ones..

And I also wish that everything will be just fine, as usual.

Happy Idul Fitri all,

Minal Aidin Wal Faidzin, mohon maaf lahir dan batin..

I Dare You

To tell the person you love the most, that you love them.

Jumbled Words

Howdy!
This is my first time writing blog randomly from my so-called-gadget other than my laptop.It’s quite troublesome, I tell you. But it’s however nice to know that now you can instantly pouring what’s on your mind without having many technical “delays” which sometimes, discouraged your “wonderful” will to do some writings :)

5 highlights of the week:
1. Some called me freak. I couldn’t agree more. In some ways, tho. I know it’s a bit exaggerating when you just got an iPhone for 4months and suddenly wanted to change it to Blackberry. For some reason, I am that person. And I’m very thankful to God coz I’m lucky enough..to have such courage to dream like that, and to have the dream fulfilled, without having to give up anything.
I know I’m a freak. Sigh
2. Started my working period. It’s okay but still, I’m not quite bonding yet with my new job.
Maybe because of the environment.
3.Bayu’s bday on Thursday, and I called him at almost midnight on Thurs night, just to make myself knew that I’m not the person he was expecting to call. Shrugs. Malangnyaa..
HAHAHAHAHAHA. GOT YOU BAY! That’s my bday present for u :)
Miss you a lot, tho.. Huks.
4. Having fights when you’re in fasting period didn’t make it easy.
5. Done applying to cosmo, just waiting for the news to come.. AMIN.

I’m just hoping that everything’s going well.. And I can speed up the process so I can move to Melb without having many problems. Aminn.

Anyway, just had my 35 months anniversary on 14th. I can’t tell you how happy (yet also threatened) I am to be in such long and wonderful relationship.. :)

Bye for now ;)

Walk On – U2

And love is not the easy thing
The only baggage that you can bring…
And love is not the easy thing…
The only baggage you can bring
Is all that you can’t leave behind

And if the darkness is to keep us apart
And if the daylight feels like it’s a long way off
And if your glass heart should crack
And for a second you turn back
Oh no, be strong

Walk on, walk on
What you got they can’t steal it
No they can’t even feel it
Walk on, walk on…
Stay safe tonight

You’re packing a suitcase for a place none of us has been
A place that has to be believed to be seen
You could have flown away
A singing bird in an open cage
Who will only fly, only fly for freedom

Walk on, walk on
What you’ve got they can’t deny it
Can’t sell it, or buy it
Walk on, walk on
Stay safe tonight

And I know it aches
And your heart it breaks
And you can only take so much
Walk on, walk on

Home… hard to know what it is if you’ve never had one
Home… I can’t say where it is but I know I’m going home
That’s where the hurt is

I know it aches
How your heart it breaks
And you can only take so much
Walk on, walk on

Leave it behind
You got to leave it behind
All that you fashion
All that you make
All that you build
All that you break
All that you measure
All that you feel
All this you can leave behind
All that you reason
All that you sense
All that you speak
All you dress-up
All that you scheme..

Life is never easy

I am excited for my graduation tomorrow. Yet I still have this “ganjelan” in my mind, and I cant simply do the “get it out off your mind by doing something else” thing.

What should you do if you are having one of the biggest event in yr life tomorrow, yet your life is simply messed up (ok, too exaggerated, I know) until it can make your heart feels like jumping out front and back through your lungs and stop beating….. for about a minute. (again, another hyperbole here).

I feel empty. But why it is hard for me to breathe?

Random Facts

I write this post from Hotel’s internet connection which costs about 32RM per hour (dam*it).

And I didnt do it on purpose of my own leisure. My dad asked me to send some emails.

I just got back from a really nice dinner with all my lovely friends in Italliannies. Until “something” happened and it ruined the rest of my nice night (which, FYI, I havent had such “nice nights” for a quite long time)

I have to take my graduation gown early in the morning yet now IM STILL NOT SLEEPING (or, HAVING MY BEAUTY SLEEP)

I love my boyfriend, (and it grows stronger, I know it. but I feel weirder.. is it weird??)

Oh God..

Life is sure never easy.. Isnt it?