And yes, Here I Am

OKAY. I’m pretty excited about updating this blog because you know, it’s been AGES since i do that.

Here goes. 

First thing first..

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2009!!! :)

• I wish this year to be better than 2008.. and everything will be perfectly fine. (well a little bumpy here and there will be slightly tolerated though)
• I wish for my parents and my siblings to stay healthy and succeed, either in terms of their “marriage-family” life or also in the “business-works” kind of way.
• I wish for a better and stronger relationship with my man, (eventhough what I have now is REALLY great and magnificent) since there’s a BIG obstacle starting to lay down there in the beginning of the year, so called the “long-distance” relationship. Yes, one of the freaking phobias that I’ve ever had.
• I wish for a better me, for a wiser and more open-minded me, for becoming less in all the negative thinking, for successfully cutting the paranoia side of me (yeah, big time) and (atleast trying to) have less worries in my mind.
• I wish for a great education journey I will start in 2 months time, which at the end resulting in an excellent outcome.
• and I wish that I could make money by myself, either by working as a part timer or doing such internship (again) but now I hope I get one of the chances in one of the Big 4 by the end of the year

Well. That is all I guess. Some other wishes (and so-called resolutions) are better kept unsaid, for which they are relatively unnecessary at the moment (not unnecessary in THAT way, you know. But they just.. aren’t as important as those above)

Second news,

Say Hi to the land down under! Yes, I am now in Australia.. dan taukah apa kesan pertama yang didapat as I landed my foot in Sydney (my first pit-stop before Melbourne was Sydney)?

Australia is so sucky in the wi-fi / wireless internet things.

YES!! SHOOT ME! EVEN IN THE AIRPORT, THERE WAS NO FREE WIFI PROVIDED TO US FOR GETTING ONLINE!

Okay, now I did sound like a geek slash freak. It’s not that I’m such a geek slash freak whose life’s depending on the existence of the Internet or what. (tell me about that) But still! No FREE ones! We have to PAY for accessing wi-fi!

Indonesia.. I can understand. But Australia?

Anyway. I spent 3 nights in Sydney (23rd – 26th afternoon) and we went to several places.. Darling Harbour, Circular Quay, Opera House to name a few.. sisanya biasanya berakhir di either Mcd or Hungry Jacks (yes, it was christmas hols so the stores are mostly closed,)

Then we went to Melbourne. and here I am, in Melbourne since 26th January, having the new year eve by sleeping tightly and soundly (like a baby), crying badly when mommy and daddy left (like a baby), and can’t stop moaning and feeling so homesick (like a baby?) ever since.

It’s not because Melbourne’s not nice or what, (BELIEVE ME, IT IS a NICE city) yet I feel so…. strange.. and alone in this BIG city.. (not to mention.. LIMITED INTERNET CONNECTION)

With all stores still closed due to the holidays, there’s not much to do around here. Added by the fact of  the stupid weather that freezes my a#% out EVEN THOUGH IT IS STILL (supposedly the peak of the) SUMMER SEASON. YES, IT IS A BLOODY SUMMER NOW. Yet, I’m sitting here wearing three layers of clothes and wondering if there’s any way to cover my hand since they’re kinda freezing. Ditto for my foot. And my cheeks.

Sigh.

I can’t complain though. My parents had done a lot (HELL A LOT!) to make me comfortable, not to mention the money they’ve spent to buy all the necessities.. I feel so… guilty.. no, not guilty.. I feel so owe them VERY much for all of these. And it will be inappropriate if I still moaning and whining and complaining without even showing how grateful I am that I am still able to feel all of these luxuries, unlike those children in the Gaza Strip. (Sigh. Yes. I do read newspapers)

The unbelievable thing is.. my dad did offer me to go back home first, so that I don’t need to spend my 2 months alone.. doing nothing (baca: seharusnya cari kerja), dan tambah lagi papa mama begitu khawatir akan banyak hal (misalnya… well. not to be shared here) so they are giving such a high approval for my plan to go back for 1 month before going back here again in about 18th Feb. 

And yes, shame on me, I agreed straight away and booked my flight for 16Jan – 18Feb.. (In my defense.. I got it for like $450 only for a flight like Virgin Blue! I think it’s a pretty good deal….  isn’t it?)

God does listen to your pray, doesnt He? :)

Enough blabbing, the new year’s starting pretty good, although it was also bumpy a little, (about where-my-future-goes-with-him- talk with my parents, to be precise) but everything is good so far :)

Yes, I do miss HIM SO MUCH. It was hard to not regularly see him back then after graduation.. it is even harder now since I can’t also hear his voices in a daily and hourly basis for quite a long time..

God, can you please help the humans to invent a-non-expensive (free if it’s possible :p) communication-for-a-long-distance-relationship-couples or such kind of tool? *shrugs*

BTW. Can’t wait to the orientation week to start.. Thrilled, but yes, excited :)

See you around in no longer time! :)

 

NOTE TO SELF:

• Do calculate how much the mobile  - broadband will cost you and decide on which plan I should choose.
• Packing all my food stuff – dispose the expiry ones
• Confirming the clayton’s house.. and moving.

Life is never easy

I am excited for my graduation tomorrow. Yet I still have this “ganjelan” in my mind, and I cant simply do the “get it out off your mind by doing something else” thing.

What should you do if you are having one of the biggest event in yr life tomorrow, yet your life is simply messed up (ok, too exaggerated, I know) until it can make your heart feels like jumping out front and back through your lungs and stop beating….. for about a minute. (again, another hyperbole here).

I feel empty. But why it is hard for me to breathe?

Random Facts

I write this post from Hotel’s internet connection which costs about 32RM per hour (dam*it).

And I didnt do it on purpose of my own leisure. My dad asked me to send some emails.

I just got back from a really nice dinner with all my lovely friends in Italliannies. Until “something” happened and it ruined the rest of my nice night (which, FYI, I havent had such “nice nights” for a quite long time)

I have to take my graduation gown early in the morning yet now IM STILL NOT SLEEPING (or, HAVING MY BEAUTY SLEEP)

I love my boyfriend, (and it grows stronger, I know it. but I feel weirder.. is it weird??)

Oh God..

Life is sure never easy.. Isnt it?

Ya Allah, mudahkanlah..

Ok it’s been long I haven’t updated and write anything for this blog..

This week i learnt a lot. Ups and downs are barely there, my days were over so quickly and i felt that those days passed when my soul is not ready yet.

Some highlights:

1. I finally met Andra and Yaya! we will never change, I believe. The laughs are still there, the jokes ARE definitely still there, the friendship.. yes, it is there. The most important thing is I still have that comfortable feeling around them, which I rarely found within myself lately if I’m with somebody or within a group of people I called “friends”. Sigh.

When my first ‘went out’ with Andra, I met this boss of one the biggest media company in Indonesia (Andra was looking for some helps for his project) (baca: dana) and I went to accompany him. We had lunch in Nippon-Kan, and yeah, I (literally) bawled my eyes out when I saw the menu (AND OF COURSE, THE PRICE). One plate of sushi for 120.000 IDR!! Are you kidding me??

Yah, we were standing there like two stupid people did not know what to do (or order) , sampe akhirnya kita memutuskan untuk “yah kita pesennya ikut aja deh oom..” hahahaha.

It went great. That day went really great. I met many ‘oom’(s) (haha) and ALMOST all of ‘em have child who is enrolled (or going to) to MONASH. (and to be precise: to ACCOUNTING MAJOR. Geez.).

The second time I met Andra, it was also with Yaya and Nat2. We discussed about Mac (Yaya bought this MacBook Pro and I was all “DAMN YOU HOW CAN YOU *&^%$#@@@!!!!”) (and make some conclusion with Nat2 that yaudalah ya, namanya juga temen2 kita adalah Perkumpulan Orang2 Tajir Sedunia yang memang layak dan memerlukan hal2 tersebut). And we made this super-cool yet controversial photos of Jesus-last supper replica (IT WAS ALL YAYA’s IDEA!) and those two were so damn excited to upload the photo into facebook (added with some “nice” tags. sigh!)

I was so happy. I really was :)

2.  My love.. He will go for about 3 weeks (geez) back to Malaysia.

What can i do? I felt that pain in my heart, not because I’m afraid to do such LDR for 3 consecutive weeks (well,…. maybe a little), but knowing that I’M SUPPOSED TO BE IN THAT PLANE, WITH HIM, and have my only chance to have such reminiscences, to have my own time machine experience (to ‘turn back time and do everything again from the beginning’)..

I love those memories so much, and to know that I will never ever have my chance to do all those things again, it kills me. At least I want some last nights to be remembered, some last nights with him (and others as well!) to look back and laughs, to hold hands and most importantly, to make them know how important they are to me in my life..

And of course, especially him :(

But yeah, God did not allow me to do such plans. And I always believe that God will always have more beautiful plans await for me, so all I can do now is just being patient and praying really hard..

3. Still closely related to above topics, I will start working on early August. My parents had decided that I should help them with all the finance things in Mutiara Bunda. So I guess I do not have any other choice.. Besides that, this job is temporary only (I really do hope so), to make myself busy before I continue to pursue my further education in Australia.

4. Ah yeah, it had also been decided that I will continue my degree soon (maybe in February) in Australia. I will apply for Monash (and Macquarie, tho) and decide which one best suited me later. (I guess it will be Monash, cos’ most probably my sister will have her bachelor degree in Monash as well.)

5. Many small matters that I also have to worry about (or is it just me and my sickness again?) (Which is “worrying too much” , FYI). And everytime I think about them, I will have this pain in my chest and this sudden migraine attack.

(kajuman!) hahaha..

So, I do not have many choices, eh?

After graduating in September, it will be the official time when I made my first baby-step into the real world.

All I can do now is just praying that everything is going well dan smua lancar (for me and ridzki, also) dan smoga Yang Diatas selalu berkenan memberikan berkah dan rahmatnya..

Ya Allah, mudahkanlah semuanya.. Amien.

New chapter, new hairdo?

Some crappy thoughts first..

After somuch changes in themes, clicked here and there, i just get soo exhausted by looking and trying to decide which theme i thought is the best one.

Yeah, for those who do not know me,

Hi, i’m Lintang. I can’t make any decision properly,  even the small ones. I’m expert at being undecided, i’m majoring in being plin plan every single time.

Ok yes, that’s me in a (really) short form.

Where were we? ah, the new theme, yah i think it’s okay (still! cant seem to decide ANYthing huh?) and since i’m too damn lazy to change any header, i will leave it as it is, … temporarily of course.

Graduating!

YEAH BABY! i’m graduating! I had my results came out at 10th July afternoon. I was so nervous, i practically checked my WES for about once in 5 minutes. Later on i started to feel that I was doing something useless, so i decided to take a shower. When i got out, i checked my mobile (because my sis said that there was a call) and yes, there was one missed call (which happened to be my pocidol) and one SMS.

I opened the SMS (without checking from who it was at first. uhum. so me.) and there goes: “My Monash portal SMS result……”

I was standing right there with an opened mouth and my hands were all shaky,

I passed! I’m done with Monash! I’m graduating! Oh God I was so overwhelmed i thought i could cry (which at the end, yes, i did a little cry). This means my journey finally has it end! and yet eventhough it’s so sad (and sucks, big time.) yet i couldn’t hide the feeling of glory joy happiness etc etc.. because i know i’m graduating AND with a very satisfying result (for me) in addition. Yes, apparently, i got two HighDistinctions and one Distinction :)

Thanks God for everything!

Ribuan Alhamdulillah gak akan pernah cukup buat ngungkapin smuanya yang gw terima ya Allah, terima kasih banyak :)

HENCE,

Since i make a promise to myself, after i know i’m graduating, i will cut my hair short….

Tada! here i am, with a really short hair, feeling good to myself *grin*

Cheers to the world! :D

My first post

My first post on wordpress!

Yes, i’m a newbie, and the header up there, as you can see, is just one of the experiments i’ve done, which did not result in failure.

And because i’m too lazy to change it (added by the fear to face another failure hahaha), i will let that image hanging there at first, and later, if i have time of course, i will change it to a more appropriate header. (it’s so funny when i put the italic words “if i have time” since, i’ve got all the time in the world to do anything i want!)

(baca: pengangguran)

It feels weird to know that you’re at the end of a path, knowing NOTHING about what will you do in couple months later (or say, weeks). Yes, it also feels weird to know that such path, which has been so damn wonderful and nice and warm and etc etc, will have an end, and you are forced to take a new direction, a (maybe) scary one..

Geez.. how i hope that time FOR ONCE, does not fly this fast.

On the other hand, i feel that there’s no point in crying and moaning.. i still have my one and only God, my family – my support system, my friends (both in here and there), and most important of all, i still have him :)

Oh, and yes, eventhou people say LD relationship sucks (and i second that opinion), but somehow, deeply in my heart, i know we can do it (ya kan ci?), we’re 22 now, and there’s no way we can not handle matters such as ‘kangen yang luar biasa menggila’, ‘brantem lewat telepon’, ‘ketemuan yang jarang (atau hampir tdk pernah)’, ‘biaya yang membengkak’, etc etc, because, let me tell you,

we have been there, done that.

(well, i just hope my PMS do agree with me on that issue, tho :p)

Random issues (yet important!):

1. Results will be out on 11th July.. damnit.. my heart wont stop beating like crazy everytime i remember that.

2. After that, i’m officially jobless.

3. I moved to a new home in Alam Sutera Serpong, which is REALLY REALLY SUPER NICE, and i love this new home! (despite the fact that there’s no telephone connection yet)

i think that’s all for my first post, i’m blabbing too much.

have a nice day everyone:)