and a wedding plan is the one that each and every girl has dreamt since they were a kid.

Again, ive been tagged by some good friends of mine. So I thought Id do it here.
1. how old are you?
23

2. are you single?
nope :)

3. at what age do you think you’ll get married?
well well well. 27-28 maybe.. ahahaha no pressure ayy

4. do you think you’ll marrying the person you are with now?
insya Allah kalo diberi kemudahan dan kelancaran. ya sayang ya?

5. if not, who do you want to marry?
i do not have (and want to anyway) any other idea.

6. who will be your bridesmaid & bestman?

bridesmaid: my sister! :) bestman: cant help but to pick the great reman murandi. sigh.

7. do you want a garden/beach or traditional wedding?
garden! with a lake.

8. where do you plan to go on honeymoon?
its not the place that matters, it’s about the person youre gonna spend the honeymoon with. :)

9. how many guests do you think you’ll invite?
my family, and my close friends :) (well. if my daddy and mommy dont have their own-guest list tho. hahaha)

10. will that include your exes?

sure. why not?

11. how many layers of cake do you want?
18! hahahaha

12. when do you want to get married, morning or evening?
from dawn to dusk *maunya*. pagi aja deh. resepsinya malem.. tuh kan gw bilang jg apa. dari pagi sampe malem..

13. name the song/tune you’d like to play at your wedding.
a must played: CANON IN D! :D

14. do you prefer fine dining or just normal spoon&fork?knife?
fine dining. sadis

15. champagne or red wine?
both deh ya.. dont care sih bok

16. honeymoon right after the wedding or days after the wedding?
right after the wedding! hahaha

17. money or household items?
can i have both? *puss in boots-eyes*

18. how many kids would you like to have?
2. we’ve agreed on this. ya kan bay? :p

19. will you record your honeymoon in DVD/CD?
and photos as well.

20. whose wedding planner would you hire?

PRESTON BAILEY! *drooling*

10 ways to be happy.

I found this on one of my friend’s notes, and i really cant agree more.

10 Sikap Agar Tetap Bahagia :

1. Janganlah khawatir.
Kekhawatiran adalah penyebab aktivitas dan pikiran kita tidak produktif…

ok. i need to stop worrying.. esp. to small matters

2. Jangan membiarkan ketakutan-ketakutan tak beralasan menguasai hidupmu.
Kebanyakan sesuatu yang kita takutkan tak pernah terjadi…

(crossing fingers)

3. Jangan menyimpan dendam.
Hal inilah yang paling besar dan paling menyita energi seluruh hidup kita..

EXACTLY! (well.. i’m trying to. and i think.. I THINK, i’m good at this)

4.Selesaikan setiap masalah satu per satu.
Hanya inilah cara menangani setiap persoalan..satu demi satu..

5.Semua masalah tak perlu dibawa tidur.
Hal tersebut buruk dan tak sehat, biasakanlah tidur dengan nyaman..

6. Jangan mencampuri masalah/urusan orang lain.
Mereka memiliki cara sendiri untuk menangani setiap masalahnya..

7.Jangan hidup pada masa lalu.
Nikmatilah masa lalu sebagai kenangan, namun jangan tergantung padanya. Konsentrasilah hidupmu pada kejadiaan saat ini dan anda akan bahagia sekarang..bukan hanya pada masa lalu..

8. Jadilah pendengar yang baik.
Hanya saat menjadi pendengar, seseorang mendapatkan dan belajar ide-ide baru dari orang lain..

9.Jangan biarkan rasa frustasi merusak dan mengatur hidupmu.
Kasihanilah dirimu lebih dari segalanya..Aktiflah dengan kegiatan-kegiatan positif…

10.Hitunglah rahmatmu.
Jangan pernah melupakan rahmat yang kita terima sekecil apapun, semakin banyak rahmat kecil yang kita kumpulkan akan semakin berarti bagi hidup kita..

Dont forget that He’s been so wonderfully great and amazing to us.. Zillion thanks would not be enough to express my gratitude for you, my dear God.. alhamdulillah ya Allah =)

so, find your ways to reach your own happiness :D

Sentence that has just made my day:

“insya Allah gw akan terus percaya sama lo.. karna elo orang yang paling baik yang pernah gw kenal :) Bayu beruntung tang, dan lo juga beruntung karena Bayu begitu sabar :)”

(said by a very best friend of mine, mr. *J ( i owe you a lot!) in Blackberry Messenger)

Indeed. I am very lucky to have him. I really am.

So, thank you sayang, for your willingness to fight with me,

for your patience,

for your presence,

for your love,

for you,

otherwise I will not be able to stand tall here still, alone.

I love you :)

Just when you think you know someone,

that someone turned into a big disgusting monster that can only able to growl and yapped, yet so freakishly weak, a little boy can defeat it straight away…. only by one hand.

wait, is it a monster or it’s just in my imagination?

Approximately 15 Hours from now.. I will..

… have my first exam in Australia, my so-called-first-of-Master Degree exam, my 3 days-epic-battle.

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Current activities: pray real hard. yet slacking my a** off while i SHUD BE STUDYING.

Current worries: the 3days battle.. starting tomorrow.

Current wonders: why i cant consume any more words.

Current excitements: nothing. oh! thursday. i’m excited about thursday.

Current annoyances: AFX5120 Assurance Governance and Fraud

Current needs: a super sophisticated and smart brain.

Current wants: HOLIDAY!!

Current fears: Good God knows.

Current blessings: God’s been so wonderfully nice. He keeps giving me these uncountable blessings.

Current “what made my day today” thing: that moment where he held my hand tight, comforting me while he, himself, had a big battle yet to come this afternoon.

Current songs played: Budapest – Is this the best it gets

Current sources of happiness: Incubus, Bayu Indrawijaya, Twitter :)

Current thoughts: God I need your enlightenment, please help me..

Current words (of the day): EXAMINATIONS

Current mood: sleepy, headaches, energy-less.

Current cravings: his smell and his hugs and his unshaven beard and his silly cheeks and his warm hands and his round belly and so on so on

Current wishlists: HDs.

(SADISS. HAHAHAHAA. Aminnn Ya Allah amiiinn.)

Current lyrics: “Love sings, when it transcends the bad things.. have a heart and try me.. cause without love I wont survive..”

People of the week: Bayu Indrawijaya :), Reman Murandi, Randi Nizar, Barli Wibisono, Putra Sadikin, Ridzki Noviansyah, Adil Yamanie.
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Now playing: Incubus – Love Hurts
via FoxyTunes

23!

thank you all, thank you God,

thank you :)

Membongkar file lama

And I found this microsoft word file.. with these words in it:

You only live once, as said by The Strokes. So I believe I will not regret any decision I’ve made.

I am 23 this year, and I feel I have to do something with my life, either to live it to its fullest, or just plainly letting it goes with the flow.

So I decided to follow my heart starting from now on, and all of my attitudes, all of my feelings, all of my objections towards people, will become a reflection to what I have in mind….in a super honest way.

Well, maybe one or two times I will still put more concerns to what people think and I will still trying so hard to make other people happy,

But still, I will learn to be an “egoist-kind of person”. I will learn to put my happiness first before others.

As my grandma ever said, if you’re not happy in making other people happy, then there’s no point in doing it.

*Thanks grandma, and suddenly I miss you :(*

Hell. What a word.

 

PS: My current condition is… undescribeable. I’m trapped in Hargreave Andrew Library, doing some assignments that I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT THE HELL IS THIS THING THAT I’M READING OR WRITING -, I havent printed the 15 articles which have to be read before friday next week, and I still  have ALOT of things that are going on and on and on in my mind, while I still have to balance myself and keep myself sane at the same time.

And well yeah, love does help.. I know it’s (super) lame. Yet I admit, even a bit, it helps in putting out some sanities in me.

:)

[5 more assignments to go..  and 1 month more to the final exam.. dammit.. I need to make a time schedule.. no wait, .. I did make it.. but the thing is.. I NEED TO FORCE MYSELF TO KEEP UP WITH THE PLAN. PERIOD.]

Ciao for now.

Ola` :D

Been hiatus-ing for like.. ages.

and it feels great :)

However, some things did change, some events were inevitably happened, some people come and go.

Have i prepared for such change? No.

Did it affect me? Yes. Big time

Did I regret it? No. With all the hopes and wishes.

Did I survive? I believe so.

Did something revolutionary good happen after that? I cant answer that… yet. But hell yeah, I know it will be.

“Desperation is the raw material of drastic change. Only those who can leave behind everything they have ever believed in, can hope to escape” (William S. Burroughs)

PS: Sorry for such lame blabbing. Too many things jumbled in my mind in this very current time.

…

Well.

Still enjoying ur life tho? Good. Keep up the good work :)

Because I know I do :)

Ramblings

Have you ever felt that deep down in your heart, you are afraid that even though you feel that you have it all, yet actually you posses none?

To tell you the truth,

I admit that i feel insecure very very often, *almost everytime*, but i always try my best to hinder it in ANY ways so that people would not know.

A very good friend of mine once said to me that I have a potential that I never realized, and I am precious in what I am right now. I should not (EVER) underestimate myself, because I can change the world if I want to. (I’m not lying. He told me this.

… well, not EXACTLY like that. In a similar manner). Thus what I need to do is simply stop worrying, being myself, and realizing what potential that I may have left out within myself.

I am happy with my life right now, and I’m trying to live my life to the fullest, do what I want to do, and stop being so ridiculously insecure.

Because I am what I am. And I believe that they love me for this one :D

Life sure gives too many lessons for me to handle.

Thus I simply don’t give another damn to any more judgements and stereotypes.

G’day, Mate.

Holla and big HI from me again!

I’ve reached Australia.. for the second time.. and now, all by myself. I’m settling in (pretty much trying to) with every situation and condition here, and to be honest, I enjoy my-already-2-weeks experiences here :D.
I enjoy walking to a nearest bus stop in a windy day, and having no idea which bus i should take,
I enjoy doing all the grocery-shoppings, and having some fractures (hyperbole mode is totally on) on my hands because of its weighs,
I enjoy watching all of those people who’s busy walking and making a lil bit of ‘judgmental impressions’ to them,
I enjoy sitting in the bus, putting my iPhone on, and having my thoughts organized,
and mostly,
I enjoy having a sip of apple juice and / or some chips, laying in bed and being covered by blanket, while doing some re-run on FRIENDS,

(Hm.. You may ask me for the last point I stated above. Yes, it is true that I’m not only doing that while I’m here, and I’ve been doing that for like.. 3 years, but still.. It feels different.)

The point is,
I cherish this “hiatus” period. A lot. Until I feel that I’m gonna cry once I start my classes.
(FYI, all the classes will start nextweek. sigh.)

(big sigh)

(another big sigh)

I do realize not all of the people (especially those who’ve been working) are having such a…. blessing like mine, to have a totally free-period, when there’s nothing to do, nothing to be rushed for, nothing to catch up (except for some gossips or latest news, for sure. HA!), and most importantly, nothing.. to be worried about.

Man. It does suck to be all grown up.

and yes, sometimes I (still) wish I have doraemon.

..
(uh huh, put another sigh here).